I feel like lately, I haven’t had anything to say that would be worth reading. More importantly, I feel like the things I would write aren’t things people want to hear about anyway. Negative, negative, negative; sometimes, life can just be that way. But should that be what I am blogging about? Do people want to hear that stuff??? What does blogging mean anyway? What does it mean to you?
For me, I started this blog because I wanted to share my thoughts with the internets. I still feel that way just as strongly today as I ever did, but what I am going through right now prevents me from being able to focus in the ways I did in the past. It prevents me from opening a can of whoop ass if I need to, and it prevents me from even thinking sometimes. Sometimes, it is all I have not to just sleep the day away. But is that really what I should be blogging about? I know that I am in essence doing that very thing right at this very second, but I guess that is as good a way as any to bring it up, right?
I love my blog. I brings me a lot of joy. I hope others like it too. But I worry that I don’t have the right stuff to keep it healthy and thriving, you know? I also feel like I have lost so much by going through this craptasticness, and even though I want to just be like “stop idiot! let’s get back into the light!”, for whatever reason, I ain’t moving. I guess one good thing about that, is that it shows that I am not going anywhere (with regards to this blog and all), and that eventually, I will begin to see the landscape around me again… I hope.
I think you do a good job of balancing personal topics and current affairs. Every bloggers goes through this at some point (assuming they blog long enough). You can only do what makes sense and works for you. If you want to rant (or whine) and feel it will turn off your regular visitors, consider blogging at a free hosted site on the side.
j, that is a great point, but my only reservations on that would be that if it is coming from me, it might as well be here; I don’t see myself quitting blogging, just wondering what it will mean for me in the future. Also, I have a livejournal that saves me from posting a lot of the off the wall, nonsensical things I would post here… and I don’t think I have enough energy for a third site! LOL Either way, I am sure things will probably pick up if I can ever stop being defuckingpressed, you know?
There are a couple of ways that critics look at art that might apply to you and blogging.
Sometimes they cherry pick the best pieces that an artist does and leave anything that they don’t like.
But I like the idea that all the pieces an artist makes is part of a large single piece that is made of all the individual pieces, no matter how alike or dissimilar they are. Every work contributes and builds the “one” piece.
I think that’s a good way to look at blogging, especially when you aren’t feeling the muse or the reasons you started writing in the first place. Being off track doesn’t mean you’re no going in the right direction. And your blog doesn’t have to be one thing, it can be many things.
That being said, don’t force words out. I know when I don’t feel a natural flow I don’t feel like I said anything of interest.
So… that’s my two bits.
I like reading whatever you have (or don’t have to say). You’ll always have the right stuff to keep it healthy and strong because it’s from you and you’ll always have things going on/stuff that interests you. You also put a lot of effort into it which makes it all the more interesting (the poems, the art, etc.) Hope you’ll continue to keep blogging.
And on another note, referencing your comment about the “internets”, I just have to post this link for you. Hope it gives ya a good laugh. Always does for me and I never get tired of it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XK1ekhovFeU
Thanks Jay and Robert, what you both said is very sweet, and is definitely what I needed to hear.
Duane,
Love ya and the blog - you do a great job of expressing “you”.