Yesterday was great… It was nice to have a relaxing day to do nothing; even though we did so much. Check out my orchid photos; that place was insane. And James and I were practically the only people there; it was like our own little paradise. It was totally cool. I wish that I knew how to grow all that stuff, because orchids are flipping beautiful, and I would love to just be surrounded by them all of the time.
Also, mad shouts to Lori for her incredible patience. Sorry I was 20 minutes late for meeting you at Sweetwater… I feel like a total tool for that. I will definitely take stock, and work on NOT doing that for the future, mmmkay? Sorry! But hey, at least we got to have several beers together, and that WAS awesome. =o)
I also want to say that I totally need more time off; I am saving up that vacation time, and I may just do something crazy with it when I get enough… I just need to get away; and days off just make me realize that more. I feel like lately that I have had this invisible chip on my shoulder that just comes out at the weirdest times; and it is almost like I am reacting more than thinking some of the time. I really need to watch out for that, because it is making things that are normally nothing, bother the hell out of me. I am seriously thinking that I might want to look into getting counseling or something; for real this time, because I really need something to push me further. I want someone that I can talk with, and who will push me to take steps that I know I should be taking, but for whatever reason, I’m not (which I think is the cause of my “chip). A lot of people will see counseling as a problem, but being a pusher of public health, I see it as a preemptive solution; get in there before there is a real problem. You are as smart as hell if you can bring yourself to do that, after all. So yeah… kind of a rambler today, but eh, it is my Monday; I don’t think that I am supposed to be on point.
And, I gave you a pretty orchid to look at, so shut it.
Tuesday Tunes:
Portishead - It’s a Fire
Everything But the Girl - Good Cop, Bad Cop
Nickel Creek - Jealous of the Moon
Counseling isn’t a problem; people who think it is are stupid. And yes, that’s one generalization I stand by completely.
kudos for you realizing the need to check your mental health — just like you would your gums, teeth, eyes, etc.
once you extricate yourself from the stigma that normally surrounds counseling, you’ll wonder why you didn’t do it before…. unless it’s not covered in your insurance — my “adjustment disorder” is
be glad getting a dwi, spinning out a convertible on an interstate exit ramp 540 degrees at 120 mph — while trying to elude arrest didn’t lead to counseling required by your employer to preserve your career… just imagine the pain of having your manager having to meet you beside the highway at 3:30 am while you have on those bracelets…
on a different note, in spite of w, i felt quite presidential in my white house yesterday…
why can’t they put the super bowl on the weekend before mlk or president’s day… sure would make the parties better for gov’t & bank employees…
cjg
What if you’re addicted to counseling? Like you can’t stop counseling people and to top it off, you’re no good at it… wouldn’t that be a problem? Would that person be stupid? I agree.
Dizzy,
You are a rockstar. Do what ya’ need to and no worries. And you should save your money up and come to India. For real!! Much love buddy…
Gorgeous photos, Duane!
Great post Duane. I love your flower photos…. beautiful! As for your chip, look into it. I suffer from anxiety along with my depression and without my “small dose” of daily meds I can not stay focused. There is nothing wrong with getting help to keep you on your upward path.
Beautiful photos, Duane. And there’s nothing wrong with a little counseling… just looking at it as bouncing stuff off an impartial person could make you feel right with the world in no time.
There is NOTHING wrong with looking for help in whatever form you need. Sometimes talking to friends isn’t enough or it isn’t the right thing. Your mental health requires maintenance just like your physical health. You have to take care of yourself because no one else is gonna do it for you. : )
Downtime is essential to living. Americans tend to take less time out for ourselves than our (healthier? happier?) European counterparts.
These remind me of Georgia O’Keefe, for some reason, and that puts me in the musical mood for “Splendid Isolation” … “I wanta be all alone in the desert; I wanta be like Georgia O’Keefe” … beautiful pics!!!
Beautiful photos, you are very talented (at photography, you naughty minds).
duane, you would make a wonderful counselor. you’re kind, patient, understanding, and non-judgemental. follow your bliss.